gUorUi's b|og

yest nite home at 0030..
kinda quite late..
cos of 1 special person going to study aboard..
glen..
reach there early..
went to the view gallery..
changes alot at the 2 storey..
saw some planes..
just feel like i want to be inside..
flying to somewhere to relax..
so down came the others guy...
have our dinner at sakae sushi...
was back to my normal feeling..

then waited for glen..
stared at the depart list...
just feel like the guy that is going is me..
just for holiday..
really first time have the feeling of getting out and fly to somewhere..
too bad is not me..

back today..
busy and can said maybe is suay ba..
early morning.. 745 phone rang..
heard i the conducting for friday...
i just cannot slept...
down office do my work..
and got a loading test today..
so need to prepare all the admin work for conducting..
then the test that is going on too..
i thought everything is going to be over soon..
and i can accompany my upper studies down to sim lim..
but is not..
csm last min pass me things to do..
said must pass to him 2morrow evening..
then is like wtf..
2morrow i DO, conducting in the morning..
and must do that thing..
which i not sure..
really bored..
really drain out..
phone rang and rang..
is really scary when the phone keep ranging.
and the no. put is my camp down..
sobz...

sometimes really feel like talking about it..
but...
i not the person who will talk to..
unless is someone close maybe like gf..

rest now..

recently lazy to update my blog..
maybe is becos of no mood of nothing that..
don't know why..
hehe..

last week was a shitty week..
i thought that OC went out for exercise..
i free from work..
but no.. thur to SAT afternoon..
i was at jurong camp from 8+ to 1900 plus...
and sat was till 1 plus...
that was like wasted half of my weekend already...
sux rite..
no choice thats NS...

back at home on sat..
rotting till evening for a birthday party..
just 2 streets away..
all the way till end i stay..
cos no program for me..
so sianz..
is ok..
just bluffing myself that i saving money..

then came sun..
wanted to go sentosa..
no one was free..
sobz..
supposely was going to stay at home..
but half way through my time of buying lunch home..
rg sms me..
so went down to bugis to pray..
then shop around for his levi jeans..
which use the vouncher which he gave..
bugis down to PS..
rg meet his NS friends and together we went shop around..
seeing the 3 guys is so fit..
i just feel so thin and not fit..
but the strange thing is 3 of them is single..
haha..

overall can said is a quite boring weekend..
weekend for me is like getting boring and boring...

that day fri saw the ending of the 9 pm chinese show..
was thinking of something..
why is it when something happen already..
then u will change and regret..
why is it will not like.. when thing happen.. u will change for it..
if time can go back..
i hope it will not happen...

anything was..
my friend asked me..
why my sentence is 1 sentence in my blog..
and not like 1 paragraph..
cos is so boring to write in paragraph..
looks so short and boring..
haha..
why not write it as sentence as my friend blog did..
haha..
if it was you that i copy..
i just did it...
=P

Mmm..
recently has been thinking of ORD.. and ORD...
haha..
even thought i left around 9 months to go..
but my upper studies that left with 3 months to go..
haha..
nvm..
forget about NS stuff..
don't feel like mention it..
alot of rubbish to finish and done with..

so this weekend..
1 is boring..the others is fruitful...
start one some boring stuff..
sat...
i went to comex..
is quite a boring comex...
and i have sore throat plus slight headache..
the wonderful thing is..
my friend drove and we cut the queue of the carpark..
with just like 5 mins without waiting for like 30 to 1 hour..
haha..
after that..
down to orchard..
shop around and have dinner at cafe cartel..
coffee after that..
then home at 1130..
haha..
early rite..
recently like..
after coming to this age..
going home earlier then last time..
which don't count chionging lah..

so sun.. a fruitful one..
went to bbq with my relative..
then down to habourfront for dim xim buffet..
after that my cousin house..
quite nice for a sports come a wonderful meal..
at dinner went to geylang which my mum live when she was young..
and i has been going during the weekend when i am a kid..
hehe...

feel like saving money for next month..
this month is a bomb again..
just don't know why..
a hole again..
sobz..

don't understand humans sometimes..
when u are there..
u just feel like going somewhere else..
when u don't feel like doing it..
when u there..u feel like doing it..
why is always the opposite..
just cannot understand..
anyone can explain..
hehe..

wake up..
legs was aching..
cos of yest AHM..
sobz...
completed 21km with the timing of 2 hours and 30min..
quite normal for a person..
hehe..

so this few days was quite a boring 1 for me..
which i think is so hard for me to adapt...
thur went out after lunch..
went to sim lim to buy things..
went home after that..
then fri was another half day..
cos of AHM..
reach home 3 plus..
not going out..
rotting at home..
sat again..
rot at home till i go to camp..
here comes sun..
after run..
i go pray and went home..
and rot again..
so is really a rotting 4 days in the rot..
gggggggrrrrrrr.....
cannot tahan liao..

today is my off in U..
and i at home again...
i think i going mad soon..
everyday asking myself..
what am i going to do...
sobz..
last time was like..
i going to meet who and who for dinner or what..
but now is really the opposite..
haiz..

*thinking*
today where everyone is working or studying..
but what am i here at home..
thinking of the future..
how am i going to survive in the future..
is this really part of the life that i want to go through..

feel like going out..
but don't know where to go..
and now i just feeling sleepy..

wanted to save money to go aboard next year june..
so i was thinking don't anyhow spend my money..
but sometimes when go out..
just feel like buying things and need to have my meals..
alot of things in my list i have brought already..
but.. haiz..
maybe i just short of a gf ba..
haha..

recently has be thinking is it becos my group of friends is too small..
cos always out with the same group of friends..
and when no one is free..
i was like feeling so lonely..
thinking of some extra activities..
like dancing..
but don't know why..
i just don't want go and find...

just sick of my life..
don't know why...

back home quite shag today..
yest i went to chalet..
will tok about it later..

fri came again..
is my AHM running...
this week 16Km...
ggggggrrrrrrrr.....
as usual i manage to finish it..
around 1 hour and 30 plus..
but with my muscule aching..
and knee shouting "stop stop" is pain..
after that met my cousin at 7..
but my training end at 7..
so i rush down taking a cab which cost 7 too..
haha..
have my crystal jade xiao long bao..
a bowl of noodle plus gong bao ji jing plus 3 xiao long bao..
was a nice dinner cos i hungry..
haha..

sat came my chalet..
since so long i have a chalet...
haha..
is ok..
even though alot of ppl came..
but less ppl staying..
still quite a fun one....
start with preparing..bbq... and chatting...
and alot of photos is taken..
hehe..
as usual took some alcohol drinks at nite..
and i KO...
haha..
expected...
this end my wonderful weekend..
and next week got more shit to come..
and mon it will start with my "wonderful" duty..
gggggggrrrrrrrr.....
hope it passes quickly..

recently has been thinking alot of my future..
what to do when i ORD..
study.. working or what..
just don't know what i want..
study.. seeming my friends so stress..
i hope i will fail and drop out which wasted my life..
working and part time study for me..
i hope thats a better choice for me for now..
at least when i study and cmi..
i still have a job..
somethings just hard to said out in blog..
Mmm..
just running through it again and again...

lastly congra ah.. rg.. 3 more weeks..
more shit will be coming...
jia you ba..
hehe...