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ok... back home from chionging... think going to make it short...too tired... suppose to go to zouk.. but full house.. so went to china black.. there is ppl queueing.. we went to eat some food before go to china black.. first time go in so late at 2a.m. we thought it end at 4.. but 3 finish it already.. so is like.. sianz.. first time go chiong for 1 hour.. but quite ok.. sweat abit.. saw my bro friend.. see some gals.. too bad i shy...haha...

before that.. whole day was following my kor to this place and that place to settle all this thing.. cos he got car today.. he lend from his friend... also went school for a while.. canteen 2 just open.. all the tenent (don't know got spell correctly or not) are diff.. hope the food is nice...haha...

k.. stop here.. going to sleep.. damn tired...

wake up at 11.. even thought i slept at 4... but don't know yest like got sleep or never sleep is the same... 5 wake up.. 6 wake up.. then don't know what time wake up again.. have my lunch.. went back to sleep again at 140...

evening went meet my pri school friend..have wq,km and xl... went sentosa to have dinner.. a buffet.. not bad.. around 16 only... after that.. went to sing songs.. xl go off earlier to settle his project thing.. and i also go off early around 1045.. don't feel like staying until too late even though one of my friend have a car...cos last nite came back late.. if tonite came back late again.. going to kanna scold in the morning...hehe...

now rotting.. think going sleep soon.. recently heard alot of problems of my friend about their relationship or what.. from that.. i just tell them how i feel.. just giving them comment... when my friend got relationship problem. i will listen and help.. but when i come to my own relationship...cmi(cannot make it)... don't know why.. ownself problem is always the hardest to solve.. hope i can make it one day...

think alot recently... don't know why...saying things that i have think through...i think recently heard alot of my friend problems..hehe.... those though is hard to write out.. (sorry cannot share with u all....)is just thoughts in my mind..maybe if i free one day.. i will try it...hehe....

fri was a moody day..
don't know why..
quite slacking.. feel like rotting..
so just run throught my mind the things...
nothing but thinking of her..
don't know how she is...
is her life good...
things to do with her..
just hard to forget her..
trying hard to forget her..
or maybe not trying to forget her..
just to let go my past...
hoping a new gal will pass me by or..
maybe not...
NS is coming.. if have one.. will scared she bing bian....
have u being listening to music.. and relate the lyrics to your past...
recently i have...listening FM in bus on the way to somewhere...
ppl always say.. just let go.. and a better one will come...
say is easier.. then working out...
ppl say.. time will do it.. but like i say.. say is easier..
now just hope everyone that have bf/gf to be happier together..
and able to solve all problems...
those without.. don't be sad... still got your friends around you...
that is the thing i trying to tell myself...
but sometime.. is hard to ask friend out...
k.. let me stop here.. or else is a long one...

basically, fri is just thinking and finding myself... and rotting...
sat.. thats yest.. 1 hour and 30 min before... morning went to meet a friend to teach me something about the fyp... i woke up at 830... long time never woke up so early.. i bet u all still in your dreamland...
after that.. went hana house.. cos she invite us for hari raya.. have me,gz,hup and wj for guys.. gals will have lynn,elaine and kelly.. quite a wonderful lunch at her house.. nice house, nice parents, nice zhao dai and nice friends.. came back home first.. before meeting calvin and py for dinner... not much exciting.. got call from my bro at 12 plus ask me the time to get home... don't want to talk about it.. k.. i think stop here.. going to sleep soon.. tired...hehe...
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k.. just finish watching tv.. later continue again...
wake up at 8 again..
my dad switch on tv until quite loud..
no choice but to wake up..
never complain anything just take my towel..
saw my mum.. tell her tv is too loud...
have breakfast at ghim moh...
not bad.. the food not change...
back home... went to sleep...
even though my parents preparing to go to my relative house...
i join them after my sleep...
reach my relative house at 2+...
celebrate my niece birthday.. 2 years old...
done nothing at her house.. 5+ went back sleep awhile...
have my dinner and home sweet home...

today no mood..
thinking school reopening...
feel stress is approaching me...
want to take off but cannot...
only way.. jia you..(add oil)...
cousin tell me to jia you before i went home...
standing at her door..
thinking to myself..
ok.. is time.. lets face it.. chiong the last sem...

ps: thanks mel and sy mei... i will live the way i want...

rotting at home in the morning N early afternoon...
reach school at 4 for briefing...
all craps.. thought something important...
after that should be meeting mentor...
but mentor is busy... so postpone...

today just do a short one...
nothing much to say...
saw my classmate and schoolmate...
all are looking fine...i guess....hehe...
think will be not blogging everday...
new sem starts..
more things to do..
not as free...
stop here...

quite tired today..
went for 9 a.m class...
half way through the leeson kanna scold by the tutor..
really cannot tahan her..
last year already ren her liao...
this year going to ren again.. damn lah...

end lesson at 10 instead of 11..
went support center...
to find a way to solve my IIS..
end up at there for 1 and a half hour
and they did not solve the problem..
they really sux..
after lunch went back again..
another person just 5 to 10 min help me solve already..
wasted my morning time...hehe....

have my lunch half way through..
saw the person friend..
i have the urge to find her...
look around never saw her...
feel quite disappointed...sobz..
after a while saw her...
saw her with a friend..
looking of her bad view...
hoping to look at her front view...
think her friend tell me that i here...
i saw her abit and turn away..
u know.. those feeling of..
wanted to look at her...
but don't dare to see her... sobz...

think she saw me..
i just say a bye to my classmate...
and left with charlene...
don't know why have a feeling just don't
let her to wu hui me with a gal...
hope she don't wu hui...
that gal is just my fyp team members...

4 plus meet my friend to chat a while...
and went home..
nothing special going on...
settle all my things with supervisor...
tomorrow starting to do...
k.. think 10 plus going to sleep...

k.. nothing to say.. no mood... life sux.. fyp sux.. all the things sux... done...

Mmm.. 11 wake up.. eat breakfast..
watch tv.. nothing else..
later going to watch movie.. phantom of the opera...
my friend has free tickets.. hope will not sleep....
weekend is what i will look forward when school reopen...

don't feel like writing things on weekday..
cos nothing special.. just stress and stress...sobzs...

fri was a good day..
saw my IS tutor for the first time..
all not bad...
lucky this sem has good IS tutor...hehe....

if tonite come back got mood..
come back and write again..
enjoy weekend...

Mmm... sat watch the phantom of the opera...
the show is not bad..
even though there is alot of singing.. the story is nice...
hehe...

recently watch the polar express
and just finish watching Christmas With The Kranks...
both the show not bad...
worth watching for 6.5...
haha...
free can go watch...

today just went to my cousin house...
for a meeting and chatting...
come home earlier while my parents still there...
cos feel like coming home and rest...
lucky bro sms me for any supper...
just eaten bt.timah cheese prata and plain one..
now is quite full.. think sleeping soon...
thanks kor..
tomorrow going school for project again...
sianz.. mon blue...

my blog recently is quite moody..
hope u all reading don't mind...

*thinking*
in love before with a christin..
reject cos i not...
recently heard my friend say...
the bible say that.. they must find a partner(bf/gf)..
who is also a christin...
i don't understand why...
is it that important...
or is it when u are in love...
any type of communication can be solve...

k.. this 2 days never get my pda...
bored.. struck at there cannot test out...
hope can quickly finish...
i hate stress...

tired... evening went for a run...
long time never run liao..
run abit i am tired...
not enough air...
like it is the first time i am running..sobz...
done only 8 pull-up...
and my hands are tired...
haiz...
time to train up...
getting weaker and weaker..
think better think of things to work out...
have to cut down my soft drinks...
sobz....

haven got my medical check up...
was worried about it...
cos my sec friend got it...
hope it quickly come...
fast in fast out..
hehe...

Mmm.. today quite busy.. nv touch any project thing.. but promise myself going to do it tomorrow from school....hehe...

today went to meet mentor to pass him card and chat abit.. then went to temple at bugis with my bro and his gf.. then went lavander and "chop" my password.. going to go aboard on new year... whahah... going to spend a diff new year...hehe... went to raffles city then to millienwalk to search for my mum stuff.. and went home...

evening went to book my new year stuff and went home.. quite tired... have a long day..hehe...k.. finally tomorrow is thur... my class dinner...haha.. finally organise a dinner which all are free except 1.. hehe... hope have a nice dinner tomorrow...

read from my friend blog...
about things left some by the ex...
and never throw away...
Mm... what i can say is..
maybe is a good thing and a bad thing...
good is as a memory ba..
bad maybe ur gf/bf will know...
and get jealous...
yeah u are rite... u are not a child...
today seeing some children luffing
while waiting for my turn...
cos was watching tom and jerry...
no worries for them.. and they are so innocent...
there will be always be jealous,hated etc...
why don't u think it more broad...
hated or dislike etc... can be solve...
be a friend rather than a enemy...
jealous.. maybe give more trust..
that is what i learn...
i am always a jealously person...
now trying to be a better person...
so u can do it...

this can apply to all my friends lah.. not only her(ml)... hehe...
k.. stop here too long...hehe...

today have boring lesson at school...haha.. cos of the boring tutor...haha... came back do abit of my project.. then went out in the evening...

whahaha.. great.. had a wonderful dinner...
think is the most wonderful dinner i have with my class...
even though 1 is not here... and i late...haha..
supposely to meet at 615 at somerset mrt control...
but..haha.. i,wj and fc reach at 630..
and around 8 to 9 wait for us... =P...
sorry guys...hehe...
so walk to the restaurant rice table..
quite a big group...
is like.. a gang of gangster...haha...
was thinking they give us a row of table..
but end up spitting into 3 tables..
lucky is like in a small place..
only have us.. so is like quite nice too...
throughout is nice..
even thought some come late...
hope is going to have another dinner or what...
but i guess is hard...hehe...
once i think is enough...

after that.. went to drink coffee and chat...
only have me,wj,qx,fc,wp,yc,tp and simon...
even though not alot of ppl..
is quite nice chatting with them...

sianz.. tomorrow 8.. going to force myself up...
k.. blog tomorrow or what lah...hehe...

freedom is it a good thing.. or having a partner is good...???

yest just went to IS.. quite fun..even though i want to fall a sleep in the 8 o clock class.. cos too early... after that.. have my tourism.. the lect for this week is bored.. i trying very hard to listen in class... tutor say after this week will be quite interesting... i hope it is...hehe...

have my lunch at canteen 4... think every fri going to stick at there... haha... we end our lesson early.. so have 1 hour before my last lesson.. rot at library.. the next class is fun... hands on.. haha... putting all the wire to the correct place etc...hehe... got a B+..haha.. hope the next one can get a A...hehe... saw fc quite bored.. sorry fc.. cos this IS is the slacking one.. but hope u can learn something from it and have fun...hehe.... after school.. meet rg and eroy they all... chat a while on the chalet.. and know some of his classmate... after know they.. i have more friends.. thanks rg and eroy and whoever...hehe...

在爱情结束的分歧点上，
选择给予对方最后一次的疼爱，
那就是“手放开”。
让自己安静疗伤，
给对方海阔天空，
不能给对方未来，
至少还给他现在。

痴心是什么？
是爱一个人不求回报，
还是爱一个人不择手段？

在爱情里伤得最重的，
往往是最痴心的人；
或许我们一辈子都不会了解，
为什么勇敢地去爱了，
最后只有眼泪会同情自己。
“痴心绝对”
唤醒了每个人对痴心的记忆，
在一片尔虞我诈的爱情游戏中，
开始有人懂得默默守候所爱的人。

但是，
当痴心再怎么绝对也挽不回爱人要走的决心时，
你会选择手放开给对方自由，
还是继续死缠烂打伤害对方，
等着隔天上社会版呢？
爱情的开始是美好的。
两个人互相为对方着想，
包容对方的一切，
但往往要到最后分手时的关键，
才能决定相爱的两个人往后各自的命运。

在爱情结束的分歧点上，
你选择给予对方最后一次的疼？

sleepy now... k.. 9pm just come back from cal house... cos he got house warming today.. he drive us home....

his house quite nice.. but is quite small...hehe.... only me,juan,ter,py and muriel went.. 2 never came.. so is ok... we just eat the reminding food... ate alot.. that is my dinner....haha....

morning went bugis temple.. so many people.. cannot tahan... after that went home straight.. cos my cousin want to come my house... chat with them awhile and went out....hehe....

lucky today just go for briefing... no school in the morning.. or else i will be damn tired...haha... k.. think finish the 11 pm jap drama going to sleep liao...hehe...

i missing you.. don't know why... seeing u let me think of the times we are together... really hope that is a chance...

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Mmm.. short one today.. go out with wj to buy things and also buy my present.. brought liao.. but dun tell u...haha... then after that went school for a talk on...who move my cheese...

it is a great talk.. too bad if u never went... is a meaningful talk.. learn quite a lot from the talk... maybe if u want can go and buy the book..who move my cheese...

Change is gain...

opportunity is nowhere...

if u are stupid.. you can still able to teach.. but when u are stubborn.. u cannot...

The more important thing to you.. you will hold it tight

When you move forward to your fear.. you feel free..

a person who never made a mistake never tried anything new or learn anything new...

maybe you don't fully understand it.. maybe next blog i will say more about it...hehe...

Mm... who moved my cheese.. is a motivative talk...
maybe sometime is a good talk some maybe not..
but too me i think is a good one...
one of my friend tell me..
this type of talk.. u will just remember for a while..
not for long...
Mmm.. i partly agree.. is true that u remember for a while..
it depends on the person will do it or not...
but to me.. i think most of thing i have done it...
but hope to be a better person....hehe...

Change is gain...
from this what u are thinking...
what it mean by that...
changes will let u gain.. is true..
if u always do the same thing everyday...
will u be bored..
and there will not be any improvement...
so sometime...
Mm.. not sometime..
most of the time u are changing...
maybe u did not notice..

opportunity is nowhere...
from this word.. NOWHERE...
can read either no where or now here...
if u have a positive mindset.. u will think it is now here...
when it come.. don't let go.. just size the opportunity...
hehe....

Mmm.. if u are stupid.. you can still able to teach.. but when u are stubborn.. u cannot...
i totally agree with this...
stupid u can be teach.. the problem is u need more time..
but when u stubborn.. u cannot... ur mindset is always there...
example.. when u are stop in a T junction...
your mindset of stubborn will tell u.. just walk straight..
when u walk until the end.. u will just stand there..
but if u stupid.. when ppl teach u.. if u are being block..
u can still walk either left or rite...
think about it.. is it true....

The more important thing to you.. you will hold it tight
Mmm.. i agree with this.. nothing to command about it...

When you move forward to your fear.. you feel free..
this sentence is true.. u must overcome your fear...
after you know the fear is not there u will be free....

a person who never made a mistake never tried anything new or learn anything new...
ya.. this is the sentence that i like..
you ask around.. if u make a mistake u got gain anything???
to me.. i think yes.. always when i make a mistake...
i will gain abit of thing...hehe....

hope u understand what i saying about it... is all about ur mindset and attitude...

just now listen to radio..
while doing abit of fyp..
heard the ying yue ri ji...
is like.. talking about my past with her...
at first are best friend after that are stead...
alot of quarrel going on...
but the letter end by saying they are still together...
is a good one...
maybe the dj is rite...
quarrel are things that u make understand a person more...
and when there is a quarrel..
don't let the sentence.. lets break up in the mind...
after listening to this... i think about the past...
did i do anything wrong...
是我错了吗???

is there a possible to be togther again....??????

k.. i back from chalet..
before that went to school have my lesson...
have a wonderful today at the chalet..
even though is 2 days 1 nite...
thanks eroy,rg,zh,hl,glen,yw,billy,pat(don't know how to spell full name),wh,xm,sl and sophia...
530 then slept... 7 wake up already...
cos i have school..
quietly pack my things..
then leave for school...
waited to quietly leave the chalet..
but the stupid door is so loud...
wake them up....hehe....

walk slowly to take 196...
sleep at the bus for 1 hour..
before reaching the bus stop after commonwealth mrt station...
saw 61.. so took that..
at first waited to take to clementi then change bus...

k... all those crap.. lets talk about chalet...
Mmm.. afternoon meet them...
quite rush..thinking what to buy.. and what haven buy...
reach chalet.. unpack...
start playing cards...
played in-between....
never play before....
they teach me how to play...
quite fun.. but is hard to win....
haha....
after that is black jack...
play until 6...
start bbq...
lost a few dollars... is ok.. just for fun....

at nite.. drank red wine and Vodka...
was abit of drank.. but is ok...
not at worst than last time...
i know how to control myself...
they are so worried for me... (thanks)
but i ok...hehe...
able to control it...

finish the 2 drinks quite fast...
so all went to mac 7-eleven there...
continue to buy drinks...
i didn't drink it.. cos i know i cannot already...
go back chalet... start drinking again...
eroy and hl is high...haha...
but from eroy face still can see he is still awake.. but not hl....

never sleep even though they ask me to turn in early...
don't have the mood and my heart is beating quite fast...
cos of the vodka...
so chit chat until 530 until nothing to say...
and all is tired..
all fell asleep...

overall, is a enjoyable chalet...
even thought i am tired...hehe..

ps: err.. next time don't treat me like a vip.. even though i am a guest... i will shy... =P

sobz... just now suddenly hang...
was reading my blog half way through...
have to start again...

morning went school..
even though is a christmas eve...
is quite a special day...
can experience it..
before leaving the school...

at night went to orchard..
even though most of my friend is avoiding it...
before that went to suntec..
take some food,walk around..
and brought movie ticket...1.45 show..
after that wait for one of my friend..
who finish work at 11...
and walk down to taka...
never saw any familiar face this year...

after celebration.. walk to orchard mrt...
but is close due to the crowded ppl...
we walk down..
lucky saw somerset mrt station..
we try our luck...
manage to go in before the gate close..
and board the last train...

watch the Seed Of Chucky(M18)
quite a nice show..
but think 8.50 is not worth it...
is quite diguesting and some nake in it...
overall quite ok only...

reach home at 345.. not bathing...
even thought got those forms in my body..
too tired...

this year.. don't have the mood of christmas..
maybe is because of "toot"...is not with us...
or maybe i am old already...
yest i was giving like giving those fake appearance of me...
showing how enjoyable and act cute i am...
like a child...sobz...
*thinking*...
last year.. quarrel with her at orchard..
protecting her from form...
saw qx and his friend...
we was playing so happier...
maybe the last christmas is a nice song to me...

k.. going to make it short...

stupid com.. always hang... make me to angry.. think going to send to hospital liao...

stop here.. or else it hang...sobz...

...... now using desktop.. long time never use desktop already.. don't like the feeling of typing.. so noisy.. prefer laptop.. so soft....hehe....

today went school.. repair my laptop....sobz.. the person open up my laptop.. say that got water split or what.. at my keyboard there... i was thinking cannot be loh.. maybe is just my wet hand... first time saw the internal of my laptop.. so pack.... the service of mel also sux...

rot at school... chatting with my friend...also asking alan to teach me.. but he also like don't teach don't teach like that.. so just give up on him..f him... don't depend on him.. depend on myself.. and i also don't like him.. no choice.... home at 4.. slept awhile... and watch tv all the way until now...

recently was feeling frustruated...
abit of thing not rite will let me feel this way...
like to scold alot of #$%&%^%...
trying to calm myself.. reflect on myself...
maybe is cos of the stress and that stupid laptop of mine..
hope is going away soon...
sobz....
k.. end here..

ps rg: if u want to watch movie 2morrow... tell me hor... just sms me.. i want to watch the movie.. see who want to go.. also come loh... sorry.. laptop spoil.. so cannot stay in net...

counting down left with 4 days to go.. and is 2005...
so quick 1 year is over...
when u become older 1 day pass so quickly
and 1 year pass quickly too...

sometime i was just thinking..
now i am in year 3 already..
year 1 is just like yest..
also don't know how i spend my 2 years...
hehe...

year of 2004 is quite a bad one..
alot of thing happen in the world and me..
hope 2005 is here quickly..
hope is a better one for me..
and world is safe...

things to do in 2005...
1. fyp...
2. present...
3. holiday...
4. work...
5. NS...
think still got some more... cannot think of it...

so how about urs.. just leave in my comment or tagboard to let me know...hehe...

ok.. yest around evening.. scared by my dad...
he come back home.. with no energy.. and say he was giddy..
my mum and i was so scared..
quickly FU him to the chair..
my mum quickly ask me to call..
i was so afraid that i don't know what to do and call who...
at the moment i just scared i will lose him...
my dad say he climb the staircase and not feeling well in the morning...
so let him rest on the chair for a while...
while was tv.. i look at him.. see if he is breathing or not...
evening when to see.. my family doctor..
he just affected a cold...
hope he recover soon..

first time got this type of thing happen..
and i don't know what to do...
sobz...
i think i really afraid to lost my parents..
and even my friends...

today got a message..
from "someone"..
ask me to go and see her performance
cos she got into her singing competition..
congra...so i sms her back say sms u later...
then after a while.. i tell her anything..
anything just tell me again..
she reply me.. saying that if i dun want come is ok..
like she is forcing me to go..
i was like.. sobz....
i reply her say that.. not u force..
is i want to go loh...
she reply me with just a ya ya ya
and will ask my other friend...
then i was like.. haiz...
don't know what is thinking...
maybe i think too much..
i think thats her...

sobz....
all friends out there...
these few days.. weather is cold.. remember to cover your blanket when sleep.. don't catch a cold... cya...